Humility

Readings for today: Luke 14-15

Years ago, I was spending some time in prayer when I heard God speak. Not audibly. More of a voice in my mind. An undeniable impression God laid on my heart. He didn’t speak for very long. Just three words. Obscurity. Anonymity. Insignificance. Part of the reason I knew these words were from God is because they aren’t words I spend anytime thinking about. They aren’t words I would associate with my life at all. But as I received these words and meditated on these words and asked God for wisdom to understand these words, I realized God was challenging me to think more deeply about the way I live. He was calling me to labor in obscurity, embrace anonymity, and pursue insignificance. Basically the opposite of how I’d been living my life. I am, by nature, an achiever. A high performer. I’ve been blessed to have a lot of success in my life. It would be easy for me to make the mistake of the man in the parable Jesus tells in our reading for today and seek the highest place of honor. But the one who exalts himself will be humbled and the one who humbles himself will be exalted and that’s the lesson God was trying to teach me.

I’ve never forgotten those words. In fact, I often associate them with this particular parable because I was reading it around the same time the Lord spoke to me. I realized I had spent my life chasing the place of highest honor. Trying to outperform my peers. Achieve success. Become a person of influence. Sure, it was all for God or at least that’s what I told myself. But in reality I was trying to exalt myself. So when I received those words, I took a step back. I let go of my need for affirmation and recognition. I let go of my need to be perceived as a success in the eyes of the world or the eyes of the church. Titles and position became meaningless to me. I committed to never seeking another position nor asking for another raise. I intentionally sought to serve rather than be served. I wanted to seek the place of lowest honor and trusted God to raise me up as He saw fit. The result was an overwhelming sense of peace and contentment.

Ever since that time, God has exalted me over and over again. He has given me positions of leadership that I did not seek. He has blessed me financially in ways I would not have thought possible. He has allowed me the blessing of serving Him in a variety of capacities not just locally but nationally and even internationally. Again and again, the Lord has come to me and said, “Friend, move up higher.” (Luke 14:10b) This was not my goal. These are not accolades I earned or achieved. They are simply blessings from God’s own hands as He fulfills His promise to exalt those who humble themselves under His mighty hand.

Readings for tomorrow: Matthew 19, Mark 10:1-31, Luke 16-17, 18:1-30

Insignificance

Readings for today: Job 37-40:5, Psalms 19

It is good to acknowledge our insignificance. It is good to understand our place in society, our place in the world, our place in the universe, our place in God’s eternal plan. We are so very small. So very weak. So very ignorant. We don’t begin to see even the edges of God’s ways. We see barely a fraction of what He sees and we understand even less. We are so limited. So finite. We don’t even know how to think rationally or process our emotions in a healthy way or search the recesses of our own hearts much less grasp the mysteries of the universe. Who are we to judge God? Who are we to question His ways? Who are we to argue with Him over justice and righteousness and the affairs of the world and the meaning of human suffering? Even the fact that we think we have the standing to ask these questions of the Creator of the universe betrays our arrogance. We are foolish. We are ignorant. And deep down we all know it.

Eliphaz, Bildad, Zophar, and Elihu have all had their turn. They’ve all taken their best shot to explain why Job is suffering so much. They’ve all tried to answer Job’s questions. They’ve all done their best to defend God. But God doesn’t need our defense. God doesn’t need us to speak for Him. God doesn’t need to explain Himself to us. He is God. We are not. And He reminds Job and his friends of this reality as He speaks to them from the whirlwind. “Then the Lord answered Job from the whirlwind. He said: Who is this who obscures my counsel with ignorant words? Get ready to answer me like a man; when I question you, you will inform me. Where were you when I established the earth? Tell me, if you have understanding.”(Job‬ ‭38‬:‭1‬-‭4‬ ‭CSB‬‬) Right from the jump, God puts Job in his place. It’s tempting to read anger into God’s words. Frustration. But that would be a projection. There is nothing here to indicate God is speaking out of wrath. He simply is reminding Job of how little he knows and understands.

Thankfully, Job responds with humility. He acknowledges his foolishness. He places his hand over his mouth. He refuses to speak again. All his protestations have gone silent. All his demands fall to the wayside as he falls on his face before the Lord in worship. “The Lord answered Job: Will the one who contends with the Almighty correct him? Let him who argues with God give an answer. Then Job answered the Lord: I am so insignificant. How can I answer you? I place my hand over my mouth. I have spoken once, and I will not reply; twice, but now I can add nothing.” (Job‬ ‭40‬:‭1‬-‭5‬ ‭CSB‬‬) Here we see Job’s heart. Here we see Job’s character revealed. Job has never wavered in his love for God. Never wavered in his fear of God. Though he cried out to God in the midst of his pain and suffering, he never sins. He never curses God. And when God finally answers. When God finally shows up on the scene to confront Job. Job does what he always does. Job does what he’s done his whole life. He worships.

At the end of the day, all of us have to decide if we can trust God. Do we trust His plan for our lives and for our world? Do we trust His goodness even when it doesn’t make sense? Do we trust His righteousness even when we don’t understand? Do we trust Him to be faithful even when we are suffering? Listen again to the words of the Psalmist and ask the Holy Spirit to give you the faith to believe even in those seasons when you might be experiencing unbelief or doubts or questions or fears. “The instruction of the Lord is perfect, renewing one’s life; the testimony of the Lord is trustworthy, making the inexperienced wise. The precepts of the Lord are right, making the heart glad; the command of the Lord is radiant, making the eyes light up. The fear of the Lord is pure, enduring forever; the ordinances of the Lord are reliable and altogether righteous.” (Psalms‬ ‭19‬:‭7‬-‭9‬ ‭CSB‬‬)

Readings for tomorrow: Job 40:6-42, Psalms 29