Readings for today: Isaiah 38-39, 2 Kings 20:1-21, 2 Chronicles 32:24-33
Testing is a part of life. I think of when I played college sports and how my body was tested over and over again. In the weight room. On the field. I was constantly pushed to my limits and beyond. And what happened when I passed each test? My body got stronger. I got better. My skills improved. I think of my educational work. My mind was tested at every level. Grade school. Middle School. High School. College. Masters. Doctorate. I was constantly pushed to the limits of my ability to grasp and understand complex ideas. But what happened as I learned? My mind grew sharper. My thought processes became far more refined. I was able to articulate what I believe and why with much greater clarity. I think of the work I’ve done in counseling. I was pushed beyond my emotional limits and forced to come to grips with serious flaws in my character. My anger. My frustration. My perfectionism. All were getting in the way of the relationships I cared most about in my life. But what happened as I did the work? I grew more emotionally mature and regulated. I became more self-aware and secure. I was able to confess my sins and mistakes and ask for forgiveness.
Perhaps the greatest tests I have had to face over the course of my life are the spiritual ones. The ones God Himself brings into my life. I’ve been a Christian for just about thirty years now and there are many times where God called me to step out of my comfort zone to learn what was truly in my heart. Was I all talk? Was my faith just a Sunday morning thing? Did I practice what I preached? I think of the tests I’ve endured in ministry. Key moments that determined the future of the churches I served. God has given me so many opportunities over the years to trust Him and I have to tell you, it’s never easy. It brings me to the end of my strength and wisdom almost every time. It pushes me beyond what’s comfortable, beyond what’s familiar, beyond what’s expected so I can learn to lean on God.
Hezekiah faced such a test when ambassadors from a foreign land came to visit him and hear more about the miraculous healing he had experienced. “When the ambassadors of Babylon’s rulers were sent to him to inquire about the miraculous sign that happened in the land, God left him to test him and discover what was in his heart. ” (2 Chronicles 32:31 CSB) Hezekiah had every opportunity to give all glory to God but he was proud. He was proud of all he had accomplished. He was proud of all he had built. He was proud of all his wealth and power and influence. So when the envoys came, he showed off. He took them all around the palace. Held nothing back as he tried to impress them and in doing so, he seals the fate of his descendants. They would suffer death and destruction and exile. All because Hezekiah failed the test when it came.
What about you? What tests are you facing in your life right now? Are you seeking to pass them in your own strength? According to our own wisdom? With your own resources? Or are you facing those tests with faith? Turning to God? Asking for His help as you face each trial? Seeking His will and His way as you take your next step? When God tests you, what will He discover about your heart? What will He find out about your faith? Are you truly walking the walk and not just talking the talk?
Readings for tomorrow: Isaiah 40-42, Psalms 46