Readings for today: Jeremiah 17-20
Life with God can be a roller coaster. It’s not always unicorns and rainbows and bubbles and sunshine. It’s not always a mountaintop spiritual experience. It’s not always positive and encouraging. Sometimes it’s painful and hard. Sometimes confusing and complex. Sometimes depressingly difficult. That’s what I love most about Jeremiah. He doesn’t hold back at all with God. He’s honest and transparent. He’s unafraid to come before God as he is, warts and all.
“You deceived me, Lord, and I was deceived. You seized me and prevailed. I am a laughingstock all the time; everyone ridicules me. For whenever I speak, I cry out, I proclaim, “Violence and destruction!” so the word of the Lord has become my constant disgrace and derision.” (Jeremiah 20:7-8 CSB) Jeremiah has been whipped and beaten and imprisoned for preaching God’s Word to His people. He has been abused and mistreated and oppressed. It’s not fair. It’s not just. It’s not okay. And Jeremiah lays the blame at God’s feet.
At the same time, Jeremiah knows he cannot quit. He cannot help himself. If he tries to walk away from his calling, he will regret it. The pressure builds deep in his gut. He simply cannot turn a blind eye to all the sin and injustice he sees on display. “I say, “I won’t mention him or speak any longer in his name.” But his message becomes a fire burning in my heart, shut up in my bones. I become tired of holding it in, and I cannot prevail.” (Jeremiah 20:9 CSB)
Throughout his struggles, his faith in God endures. His trust in God never seems to waver. Despite the ups and downs, Jeremiah continues to place his hope in the God who fights at his side. He knows God isn’t sending him into these battles alone. “But the Lord is with me like a violent warrior. Therefore, my persecutors will stumble and not prevail. Since they have not succeeded, they will be utterly shamed, an everlasting humiliation that will never be forgotten. Lord of Armies, testing the righteous and seeing the heart and mind, let me see your vengeance on them, for I have presented my case to you. Sing to the Lord! Praise the Lord, for he rescues the life of the needy from evil people.” (Jeremiah 20:11-13 CSB)
It’s been my experience that faith and doubt often go together. Deep trust and hard questions can co-exist. Praise and pain are part and parcel of the Christian life. There are so many pressures, particularly in the American church today, to pretend like everything’s okay. We have a hard time expressing our deepest, most heartbreaking emotions or asking our most difficult questions. Somewhere along the way, we convinced ourselves that sharing these things somehow reflected a lack of faith when, in fact, the opposite is true. Life with God is not always up and to the right. Not every prayer gets answered in the way we want. Not every act of obedience will result in praise from those around us or material blessings in this world. This is probably one of the biggest lessons I learn from my brothers and sisters who practice their faith in the developing world. Their lives are full of immense hardship and suffering and persecution and yet, they cling to God. May we have the courage to do the same.
Readings for tomorrow: Jeremiah 21-24